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It had been three months since my last update and my blog was like super dull in this 2013. I really miss the year 2012 where I'm still studying and successfully graduated. I started to work on the second day of 2013 where it like a new life for me. Every day was just about work. Life is dull since I need to work six days per week and I only left Sunday as my free time. But, I'm grateful because God is always there for me. Thank you for Him to send someone who always there to cheer me and listen to all my problems.

So, here I am now to start my life and leave all the EMO stuff behind. I should Live my life with Laugh and Love. I think my another half years of 2013 will be more better. Looking forward for next month trip which I was hoping it for days and night !

Last weekend was awesome where I had joined my company trip to Niah Cave! Even I was a Mirian, I was very shameful to say that I HAD NEVER went to Niah Cave. So, here I am sharing some photos during the trip.

The entrance 

Typical tourist shot...haha

After we check-in for the one night stay, we started our Niah Cave exploration around 1pm. 

Beware for the CROCs!

The boat that we use to cross the small river. The unbalance ride was bit terrifying.

Long way of walk to reach here and it was just the entrance of the cave.

After walk for don't know how long, finally we can get some rest where most of the people decided to stop their way at the rest house. But, I insisted to follow the group to explore the cave till the end and I was proud that I successfully finished it! I thought I will gave up or fainted half way..hahaha

Awesome God creation! Happy to see this creation using my own eyes rather see it from book.

 The rest house

 Holes that somehow inspired me for not easily giving up because you will find your own light  someday.

Huh? Am I really make it?

The last stop- Painted Cave

Outside of the cave before going back. 

Before sunset at Niah :)

The trip was ended will BBQ night where I really had stuffed my stomach with countless chicken wing and pork. 

Thanks to these people that we can have nice bbq night since they prepared everything and we just prepare the stomach :)

It was indeed an awesome trip with awesome people. I really looking forward for the next trip.

Teatime

I think it was a breakthrough today because I managed to go out and having my 'me' time! It was really important for anyone to have their alone time whereby you is having your alone time doing anything that you like. The last time I having my me time was last year during my final year. Secret recipe was my choice. A slice of cake and a cup of mocha had made my day. 

                   Tiramisu my fav!

Please be more respect to elder!

My blog... I miss u so much!!!!! 

I really really don't know why I can not post anything for a month. 

I used to so active in blogging when I was still in my study life. When I had started to work, it was liked I had nothing to write because my everyday life is like a cycle. That really make me like I have nothing to blog about.

Today, I am finally sign in because I feel like I have something to express where I still glad that I had a blog for me to spill it out. Or maybe I love to write  when I feel down. There was unhappy thing that happened which my close one had hurt me. The way of their disrespect was so hurt. I didn't mean to say bad about them. But, I really cannot bear with their manner. I always try my best to play my role as eldest. When they need something, they will ask with so polite manner. When they are not, they can say something that rude which can hurt you. Words are sharper than swords. I truly agree this. Is it because I was too lenient before? Or is my fault to be too lenient till they can take it for granted? My biggest weakness is i'm way too soft-hearted. When their disrespectful was make me heart broken but when they asking for help next time, I still will help them. But, maybe because this had make them became more don't know to respect elder.

Tears and heart broken was happened again and again. I really felt like I'm gonna burst anytime soon. I keep asking God what my fault and at the same time I pray to God so that I can calm down to face all this.

I prayed. 

无奈

我以为毕业后人生会有所改变。但是这一切都只是幻想。

太多的不速之客来到了家里。

太多的事情同时发生。

我要的不是这样的生活，

很想拿行李就这样离开这里。

偶尔才回来，应该会比较好一点点吧！

明年快要25了，

但是我永远不觉得自己长大了。

世界看过的也只有几个地方。

后悔，太后悔，

从小不应该做个乖孩子。

这只是让我的人生有了太多的束缚。

除了叹气，

我真的不知该如何。

就这样简单。。。

最近慢慢开始了跑步的生活。一整天躲在办公室里的生活真的很无聊。能让自己跑步流一流汗，那感觉真的很棒。最近我的跑步又多个伴。她真的让我的跑步时间多了许多的乐趣。

爱跑的她让我觉得原来跑步可以这么精彩。