Today My Life Begins

A song that at least motivated me a bit =)

11.11.11

 A special date yet a boring day T.T

Holiday = No Holiday

First time I felt like holiday is so meaningless and boring . I think this is the first time I am not going back to Miri for my mid sem break. One week, how should I spend this loneliness week ?

There are many assignments are waiting for me to finish them. I need to hand in them right after the one week holidays. And the irritating FYP ! Sorry to all my readers because in this final year FYP and assignment are the TWO words that will keep appear in my blog post. 

Final year makes my university life so dull. Sometime, I will think whether I can finish my final year on time. I am so afraid that I can't do it. My parents, siblings all put hope on me. All of them are already excited for my convocation. This make me feel more burden. I worry I will make them disappointed. Even my supervisor said as the eldest in family, I sure will feel stress because all responsibility are on my shoulder.

Pray more and work hard is the only way for me to face all this. I can't rely on others people. The more hope I put on somebody, the more disappointment I get. This happen to me recently. I need someone to express all this .........

Bring me out from all this unhappy mood !

Hopeless

There's moment when I felt my life was so hopeless ......

I dunno what and how should I do.

Oh GOD, please give me strength to face all this hard time.

Final Year !

It's October ! It had been a long time I had not updating my blog. When I viewed my blog post and compared it with last year number of post, it totally a BIG difference. I wonder how come I wrote so much lesser compare with last year T.T.

It's my fifth week of this semester. I had around 8 more weeks to present my FYP 1. When talked about FYP, I still don't have a confirm title yet ! Since I had been assigned to another supervisor, my life more miserable. It was not that he not good or what, it just that he still a new lecturer in my faculty and everything seem blur for me and him. I just wish that I can find my FYP topic and start my engine as soon as possible. Oh GOD, please give me strength to go through all this hard time !!!

I just don't dare imagine my coming soon December life. Assignment due date and FYP presentation - arghhhhhh...... All I want is finish my degree on time and graduate soon :) 

For all peeps that are also same as me in their final year, STAY STRONG AND GOOD LUCK ! =D